When I was pregnant with Lily I spent a lot of time on the Internet looking at baby slings. There are so many different kinds and everyone thinks the one they sale or use is the best. I had a used snugli when Eric was a baby and It was okay but I wanted a cool sling. I ended up getting the new native carrier and the peanut shell sling. 

At the time Husband was making half of what he makes now, so $100 spent on slings was a big deal for us. And I barely used them. If she wasn't already asleep before I put her in them she would scream. Plus I was dealing with the post partum depression. 

I saved those slings and guess what? Gamma hates them too. He prefers to be held up-right. I have a newer snugli but I don't really like it because it doesn't hold the baby right next to me. The cloth separates us. My friend let me borrow her Maya Wrap sling and I just couldn't make Gamma happy in that either. I needed something so I could hold Gamma and have my hands free for my other two kids.

So I bought a mei tai from this shop on  etsy. Gamma loves it! It holds him upright, directly next to my body. He either sleeps or just looks around when he is in it. I wish I could go back in time and just get one of these when Lily was new. It would haved saved some money, heh. 

Three years ago March 29th was a rainy day. I woke up excited. It had the same kind of feeling that Christmas morning has. Though I wasn't expecting any presents. It was the day I would marry Husbandface. 

He woke up and went to work. I woke up and stared out the window. It just so happens that the same month we got married was the same month it rained every day except for two.  Being from Phoenix, Arizona, I hated the rain. But this day I had a reason to smile. So I said "screw you rain" and spent an hour curling my hair. It fell flat. Rain does that to my hair. I ended up getting married in a simple pony tail. 

Our appointment to get married in Downtown San Jose was at 3:30. Husband came home around 2:30. Then he decided to eat. It was 3:15 when I said, "Do you still want to marry me or what?" He didn't realize how late it was. So we rushed over to the courthouse. When we finally found parking we RAN and barely made our appointment. I had to run in wedges. In the rain. It was so not awesome. 

We were married by a judge in a blue judgy-dress thing. Husband called her a smurf once we saw the pictures of us getting married. It was just us. We had to pay someone $10 to be our witness. We said simple vows that neither of us can remember. But we were married. It was great. I was Mrs. Brown. 

We drove around after we were married trying to figure out what to do. We should celebrate! It was a Wednesday. None of the movies playing that day were good enough for my wedding day. We sat in the parking lot of the AMC and called all our families. We were just so excited. 

I had made reservations at a small italian restaurant for dinner. We ate there and the tables were so close together we could hear everything our neighbors were talking about. We ate in mostly silence. Sipping wine and just smiling at each other. 

After dinner went to Safeway and bought a bottle of champagne and a cake. Husband told me he liked chocolate cake. So I picked out a chocolate cake hoping to please him. Turns out he doesn't even like cake at all. I do not like chocolate cake. So we had a tiny cake on our wedding day that neither of us would eat. We drank way too much and got insanely drunk. 

Today I have been married for three years. Today I look at our life and am happy. 

Happy Anniversary Husbandface. I love you. 

Since Gamma was born, I had been giving him the soothie pacifier they gave him at the hospital. It is big and wouldn't stay in his mouth. Everytime we went to the store I wanted to get a different kind, but husband always talked me out of it. Lily still uses these kind of pacis to go to sleep. He wanted to have Gamma using a different kind so Lily wouldn't steal it. Well Gamma couldn't keep the darn soothie paci in his mouth. 

Today I decided to not listen to husband bought some small pacifiers.  Gamma has had two long and happy naps. I am saved. Woo hoo. Saved by a pacifier. 

Everyone (except me) is asleep. Husband and Lily are cuddled on the couch. Somehow Eric fell asleep on a chair at the dining table. Gamma is in his crib. Life is good.

Lately I sit here and I think, how did I get here? Three kids? Married? Wow. Me. Is this my life? On the 29th Husband and I will have been married for three years. On April 13th my first baby turns 6. Six years old. Six years ago I was an 18 year old who was hugely pregnant and scared shitless. I don't feel any older. How was that six years ago?

Husband and I have nothing planned for our anniversary. We have a newborn. We have no family in the area to babysit. This is just our life right now.

Our life is deliciously simple and awesome.

Gamma had a great check-up. He is 9lbs 13 oz. My boobs (mostly) work. Woo hoo. 

Right now both babies are asleep.  Me as a SAHM of 3 = success. So far. Hehe. *knocks on wood*

So yesterday Husbandface went back to work. So far, so good. I even made dinner. Around 4 until 7 or 8 is Gamma's fussy time. He just wants to be held. But he stayed in the bouncer for about 20 minutes happily while I started dinner. I just made pasta and red sauce with sausage and sauteed veggies. Nothing too fancy. The older kids were fed and happy when Husband finally came home. 

Today Gamma is a month old. Today I am taking both babies to the doctor. All his newborn hair is falling out. He is my little old man. Hehe.

Every time I sit down to blog, my little Gamma starts grunting. He grunts, and grunts and it turns into a cry. I find myself picking him up as soon as he starts to grunt. He is starting to fill out already. Has several chins and super kissable cheeks. Lily and I kiss them as often as we can.

Since he has come home Lily's vocabulary has exploded. It seems like she says something new every day. I'm so proud of her. 

I don't know what has come over me. I am usually a miserable person. But ever since Gamma was born I am happy.  I have joy in my life again. Maybe I am just too busy to be unhappy. I hope it never goes away. 

Also - I can't believe how many wipes we have gone through. Newborns are so messy! Lily is only a year and a half old, you would think I would remember things like that. I have to wash the cloth diapers every day now because of how many Gamma uses. 

I am so thankful to be blessed with a warm house, wonderful children, a wonderful husband. 

Today Gamma is three weeks old. Compared to the three weeks before his birth, these weeks have gone by so fast. Husband is returning to work on Monday so this week I am trying to prepare for that. 

The past week Eric's behavior has been awful. Yesterday I had a conference with his teacher. He is learning a lot and doing so much better with his school work, his behavior gets in the way. He deliberately does not follow directions. I spend as much time with him as I can. Sometimes I just don't know what to do with him. I love him so much, but with almost no sleep I get easily frustrated. 

My goal right now is to be more active in my playgroup. The past few months I have been miserable and just stayed home. I am going to make an effort to get out of the house. With no family and hardly any friends in the area, the playgroup is a pretty good option. I hope this playgroup turns out to be better then the ones I have tried in the past. 

Yesterday Gamma turned two weeks old. Things are hectic but continue to be good. 

Older kids are still jealous. That's just part of having siblings. 

Eric decided to wake up at 3 am today. boy I'm tired.